Turning 30

It's the last day of my 20s. I'm turning the page tomorrow and being all grown up now. It feels weird, like all the other milestones you have to go through. Going from primary to secondary school, finishing secondary school and going to college, turning 18, 21, 24, finishing college and starting work, moving to Australia...When you look back they seem small and insignificant, but at the time, it's like the biggest thing ever, and you don't know what the future holds. I'm feeling the same again right now. My life has never been better and I feel like I'm in a good space.

I'm now working full-time at a great creative agency, producing good work and earning a decent paycheck, which has lifted the constant and stress of working freelance. Sure, it does get stressful at work with some tight deadlines, but at least I can just focus on my work and not be juggling a million things in my head. Many of my friends are already getting married, and while my closest friends haven't had kids yet, but I'm sure it's gonna start happening soon. It is weird how friendships and relationships evolve and change as circumstances change.

I know 30 is just a number and tomorrow I'll wake up feeling no different -- I'll still be the very same person I am today, yet there's a sort of line that is being crossed. Getting older. Ticking a different 'age bracket' box in forms. Becoming an adult and having to 'act your age'. Being sensible and pragmatic. Making big decisions about where I'm going in life. It's all irrational, really, all these worries and anxieties. But I just can't help it... You always read about young hotshot 20-somethings setting up successful Web 2.0 companies and selling out for millions.

What have I achieved before hitting 30? Well, I've moved to different country and settled myself down here, established new social and professional networks over here in Melbourne. I've worked for myself and made a living doing freelance and contract web design and development work. Got headhunted for a couple of jobs and eventually placed at Sputnik Agency where I am now. I also finally did a bit of traveling and went to the UK, Germany, Netherlands and the UAE for the first time, something I'd been thinking and talking about for a long time.

My friends tell me that's all admirable achievements and some don't even get to do that, so i guess it's all relative. I'm thankful for all the opportunities I've had and being where I am. Still doesn't help with the uncertainty of the future though! 2007 was a bit of a rough year with more than average low points but it ended on a good note for me, and 2008 has been good so far, so I'm optimistic. Being 30 will be exciting so bring it on!

Sheep

I saw V for Vendetta last night, and I think it's one of the best movies I've seen recently because it resonates deeply with the way I feel about the state of the world today.I shall leave the synopsis and reviews to your own reading. The movie comes as a timely reminder that things are not all right with the world, and governments already use fear as means of control, and the media conglomerates as the propaganda machine. It exists in all countries, more so in some than others. The general population just allows itself to be controlled, letting government tell them what's best for them, spending tax money waging war and futile causes. Television is evil. This herd mentality and blinkered existence will lead to the ultimate loss of civil rights and democracy. "People should not be afraid of their governments. Governments should be afraid of their people"

Licensed to Drive

Yesterday I went for my driving test at VicRoads. I was nervous as hell. Having to take a driving test for the second time in your life, when you're in your late twenties, is just something harrowing that most people don't need to go through. I've already been stressed out enough with all the work I have on, and with deadlines for websites due before Christmas.I had been in touch with this driving instructor who's a friend of a friend, and he'd already helped me go through the other required theory and hazard perception tests, and had given me 2 lessons on the road as a refresher course on how we all *should* be driving and not with all the bad habits I've picked up in the almost 10 years I've had my Malaysian driving license. The test itself started ok, but i really thought I failed the entire test when I was given the instruction to turn right at the next intersection, to which I duly put on the indicators, but then continued going straight! I spaced out for a moment and thought she said to turn right at the next set of traffic lights, so there I was, not only missing the junction I was supposed to turn into, but also driving straight on with my indicators flashing. By doing so, I also threw the tester off course as she probably had a set route prepared. She had to improvise and made me do a U-turn to get back to the street I missed, and I think I redeemed myself by making sure it was done properly. The rest of the test went on without incident. When she tallied up the points, I was relieved that I passed, but even more surprised that I only had 4 points deducted out of a possible 52. That puts my score in the top 90%. I don't know what the passing score is, but I seriously thought I fared much worse than that. So now, I'm a Victorian driving licence holder (and no, that doesn't mean I'm entitled to steer horse-drawn buggies!). I still don't see the need to get a car just yet, though.

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Merry Christmas

Seasons greetings and happy holidays to everybody who's celebrating one thing or another during this period. For those who've not received my Christmas eCard via email, you can go can click on the link and view it yourself :)I've never felt less Christmassy this year. I've just been flat out working the past month or so. My family was here to visit for 10 days and I didn't even get to spend much time with them, and didn't even buy any pressies for them before they went back home to Malaysia. Anyway I decided to call it quits at about 6pm earlier this evening, and go out to get some dinner and some shopping done, it being late-night shopping on Friday nights, and due to proximity to Christmas, some are even open right until midnight. Headed down to Chapel St and walked up and down a bit, picked up a few things from various stores. Popped into the AppleCenter despite not having any real reason to be in there. By about 7:00 most of the shops on Chapel started closing so I hopped on a tram down to the city. Spent some time (and money) in Myer and Melbourne Central and decided to go home around 10:30pm when my backpack was pretty full of gifts and my back started aching. Still not quite done, but it's a start, and will have to get stuff for a few more people. Talk about leaving it till the very last minute! I so need a break right now.

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